I don't know what to write about tonight. My brain is spinning. I know I should be trying to go to sleep but so many crazy, good, potentially bad, and just darn confusing things have happened this week and I just don't know what to make of them all.
I got news from my boss today that she wants my position to go to being part-time. Like 2-3 days a week, part time. This could be good if I get student loans because then I would get 2 days off each week to study and have a social life of some sort. But if I don't get student loans I have to find another full time job or drop out of school. I'm trying to stay positive, but that's easier said than done.
Starting school has been great! I am very excited to start my training, and I am in love with the anatomy and physiology I get to learn. But it's also very stressful starting something new. This isn't surprising, but I don't think I was expecting to be this anxious about it. I haven't slept all week and I now apparently don't need to eat, like ever. Which is strange because I usually can't go that long between meals or I get cranky and light headed.
I think it all mostly has to do with not knowing how things are going to be. I like knowing. I really like knowing. And I get really stressed out when I don't know. This seems kind-of silly as there are so many unknowns in life. Maybe this is why I am so confronted by it right now, perhaps the world is trying to teach me something... hmmm...